Roseanne was given Michael Jackson’s cell phone number the night before his sudden death — but never got a chance to give her famous friend a call, the actress/comedienne reveals in a touching post uploaded to her Official Blog on Thursday.

Michael Jackson passed away of a suspected heart attack at his home in California on June 25. He was 50.

“I was too afraid. I thought I would wait until Shabbat to call him and then he was dead,” Roseanne writes in an apology to the deceased music icon.

“Michael, I am sorry I didn’t call you but I will try to help your kids out by talking about them all the time. Debbie Rowe is welcome to call me and I will help her all I can!”

Roseanne says of the King of Pop’s untimely death, “Michael freaks me out in that haunting video of his last rehearsal, he can hardly move at all, but he is giving it everything he’s got. He knows this is his very last video, and that there will never be a concert. He knows that the producers will tour it around the world and break several of his never heard songs out this way—he brilliantly leaves this world in his own way.”