Patrick Swayze’s biggest regret in life was never becoming a father.
The Dirty Dancing actor – who lost his battle against pancreatic cancer last week – always wanted children with his wife of 33 years, Lisa Niemi, but the couple was devastated when she suffered a miscarriage three months into her pregnancy. Following the miscarriage, the couple continued trying to conceive, but Lisa never got pregnant again.
“I couldn’t wait to become a dad, to have a child with this woman I loved so dearly. And I wanted to be the best father I could be – the kind of father my dad had been to me,” Patrick writes in his memoir, The Time Of My Life, on sale Sept. 29. “I felt completely crushed with grief. We wanted to try again, but the loss had been so devastating that we just couldn’t do it right away. We figured we had plenty more years ahead of us. Eventually, we did start trying again hoping Lisa would get pregnant. But she never did.”