Patrick Swayze has admitted that he may only have two years to live in a revealing interview with Barbara Walters airing Wednesday night on ABC.

“I’d say five years is pretty wishful thinking,” says the Dirty Dancing actor, who was diagnosed with pancreatic cancer last year. “Two years seems likely if you’re going to believe statistics. I want to last until they find a cure, which means I’d better get a fire under it.”

“You can bet I’m going through hell. There’s a lot of fear here… Yeah, I’m scared. Yeah, I’m angry. Yeah, I’m [asking] why me?”

“Am I dying? Am I giving up? Am I on my death bed? Am I saying goodbye to people? No way,” the 56-year-old added.

Patrick has continued to work while undergoing treatment, spending the last year filming the A&E TV series The Beast in Chicago.