Single mom Michelle Williams is struggling to find true love and a balance with the paparazzi following the death of her ex-boyfriend Heath Ledger.
The Brokeback Mountain star had split from the Australian actor months before he died from an accidental drug overdose in January 2008, but has a tough time trying to find a love to replace Ledger’s.
“The timing was impossible. I thought falling in love again was the only thing that was going to save me from the pain. This [was an] erroneous idea: It just makes things more complicated,” Michelle says in a new interview for Vogue’s October 2009 issue.
Michelle briefly dated director Spike Jonze earlier this year, a relationship she confirmed has now ended.
“The timing was impossible. I thought falling in love again was the only thing that was going to save me from the pain. This [was an] erroneous idea: It just makes things more complicated,” Michelle tells the Style Bible.
The 29-year-old former Dawson’s Creek star admits she doesn’t know how to date with a child, but she’s OK with that.
“I’m falling more and more in love with her,” she says of her 3-year-old daughter Matilda. “Every time I really miss him and wonder where he’s gone, I just look at her (Matilda).”
“And I think she deserves the bulk of my attention. We’re lucky. I can work. She can go to a good school. There’s a lot there for her. And she can know her dad in so many ways, and so many of his friends who will be able to tell her so many stories. His friends, his family â€” they were a big part of his life, and they will be a big part of her life.”
Michelle revealed that Heath’s death in January last year brought a heavier paparazzi presence into their quiet existence in trendy Brooklyn.
Michelle has an interesting way of explaining the constantly roving cameras to her young Matilda.
“It’s because people really loved your daddy that they want to take your picture, to know you’re all right….”