Vivacious So You Think You Can Dance judge Mary Murphy is over the top and larger than life on the hit FOX dance competition, but the pint-sized TV star with the boisterous laugh is revealing her personal piece of Hell in the Oct. 26 issue of Us Weekly. Mary recalls the explosive details of her abusive nine-year marriage, during which she was repeatedly raped and beaten by her savage ex.

She tells Us that three months after they wed, her now ex-husband raped her for the first time — and continued to do so for more than a decade. For years, “I’d have black eyes and bruises,” she tells Us. “But I never called the police or went to the hospital. I didn’t want anybody to know.”

In 1985, Mary discovered that her husband – from a wealthy family in the Middle East – had proposed to another woman during one of his trips. “This is what motivated me to leave him,” she says.

Her ex-husband says Mary’s claims are “flat-out lies.”