Lily Allen has described her miscarriage as “the worst time of my life” and revealed she still has therapy to cope with her loss.
In 2007, the 24-year-old singer — who is now dating builder Sam Cooper — became pregnant with then boyfriend Chemical Brother Ed Simons.
“I couldn’t even compute the emotions going through my head, but I was having to put out a press release about my miscarriage… I had this public sympathy for about five days and then everyone was on my case again and I didn’t know what was happening to me,” Lily told Grazia Magazine this week. “I just didn’t deal with it at all. I didn’t even start beginning to deal with it until the baby’s due date. Then it just hit me like a house collapsing.”
She added, “The week before the due date, all I wanted to do was talk about my baby, but I also felt I shouldn’t. I was working non-stop and I had all this inside my head. I have therapy on and off but at that time it really helped me. Then I started to deal with it and move on. I still get sad. I still think. I don’t mark (what would have been) my baby’s birth but it’s always there. It changed a lot.”