Nicole Kidman is opening up about her love life in the December issue of British GQ. In a candid interview, the Nine actress reveals that she’s been through many different types of love in her 42 years of life.

In fact, Nicole has confessed to having explored some weird “sexual fetishes” — we’re currently repressing all visuals of Tom Cruise right now…Brain Bleach!

“I’ve explored obsession. I’ve explored loss and love in terms of being in a grief-stricken place, I’ve explored strange sexual fetish stuff. I’ve explored the mundane aspect of marriage, and monogamy,” says Nicole, who posed in a racy black undergarment for the cover of the issue.

Shortly after marrying hubby Keith Urban, the father of her one-year-old daughter Sunday, the Oscar-winning Aussie set fire to the private diaries she kept during her years with first husband, Tom Cruise.

“You can’t read somebody’s diary. You shouldn’t read it,” she told the mag. “I burned most of my journals after I remarried… You’re only going to find out bad things….” Nicole added, “I want to honor that marriage for what it was, and there is nothing I would go into about that. I have never discussed the intricacies of it and I never will…”

But while she wants to keep the details of her marriage to Tom private, Nicole did tell GQ that she was advised not to marry the Top Gun star.

“I know my agents at the time were like ‘Do not get married! It will ruin your career!’ and I was like, ‘But I’m in love. All I know is that I wasn’t someone interested in fame. And that’s not why I got married. I wanted to work with people who intrigued me,” she continued.

“I became very famous because I was the wife of somebody,”