Is John Travolta finished with the Church of Scientology?

The actor, who has been a follower of the controversial faith for 34 years, is rumored to be leaving the faith after its radical medical ideals prevented him from getting help for his16-year-old autistic son, Jett, who passed away six months ago.

“There have been strong rumors coming out of Scientology that John Travolta is disappointed that the religion was not able to help his son more,” says Rick Ross, a Scientology lecturer for more than 30 years. “It’s led him to question his faith.”

But Ross adds that the 55-year-old actor may not follow through on his desire to split from the church because he fears leaders may retaliate by revealing embarrassing details about his private life.

“Scientology keeps files on its celebrity members containing embarrassing personal information about them,” Ross says. “And Scientology has proven in the past that it has a penchant for releasing that information to embarrass people who have left and who have said things it doesn’t like.”