In his first television interview since news broke of his cheating scandal last March, a somber Jesse James tells ABC News‘ Vicki Mabrey what led him to cheat on his Oscar-winning wife Sandra Bullock. The biker enthusiast also opens up about his troubled past and his time in rehab.

“[I] took a pretty amazing life and amazing success and marriage … and threw it away by my own hands…I think it’s, ‘Most hated man in the world,’ now,” he said self-deprecatingly in a clip from the interview, which airs in full this week on ABC’s Good Morning America and Nightline.

Jesse’s interview with Nightline ABC will air Tuesday, May 25 @ 11:35 PM.