Check out this sneak peek of Chris Brown’s tell-all interview with Larry King Live, set to air Wednesday night on CNN.

In his first television interview since his arrest on charges of battering his girlfriend, pop singer Rihanna, the “Kiss Kiss” star reveals that he is still in love with Rihanna, is haunted by her post-assault photo, and doesn’t remember the rage that still stands to ruin his once promising career.

(The old “I Don’t Remember A Thing” Defense, eh?)

“I just need to prove to people I can be a role model,” Brown, who was accompanied by his mother, Joyce Hawkins, and lawyer Mark Geragos during the interview at CNN Headquarters in Hollywood last Wednesday. “That’s not who I am as a person, and that’s not who I promise I want to be,” the singer laments.

Catch the full interview this Wednesday, Sept. 2 at 9/8c on CNN.